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Heartwings Love Notes 915 - Taking My Time

Heartwings says, "Your time is there for the taking."

What does it mean to take my time? Does it mean I can be leisurely, need not hurry, use as much time as I think I need or seem to, to do whatever I am doing? Does it mean I have some time that is all my own, that no one can wrest from my grasp? What is my time? How do I take it? What I've noticed is that when I reach for it, it slips from my grasp. When I plan for how much I'll need, it does not stay where I want it. It vanishes while I am looking the other way. Worse, if I get distracted and wander off, it won't be there at all when I come back.

Time is something we human beings invented. It was probably thought up by people who observed the natural cycles of nature and the seasons. Wanting to measure ahead, they created calendars and clocks of various types. If I wanted to know more, I could look it up on Wikipedia, however I don't want to take the time to do so because it's just more information than I need right now. I've written a good many poems about time, and I've a long-distance project to put them into a chap book one day. All I need is the time to do it. However, I have to take it to do that.

Sometimes I look at a photograph and think, when was that taken? I look again, realizing that more than 30 years have passed since, and wonder, where did the time go? I don't remember taking that time and doing something with it, though I probably did. However, now is when I could use it. As I get older it takes me longer to do what used to take less time. I find it is important to me to recognize that there is nothing wrong with that; perhaps I am more thorough than I used to be. Or does time just go faster than it used to do? I'd like to go back and dig up some of that missing time.

As my number two daughter once pointed out: to an eight-year-old, a year is one 8th of life. To an 80-year-old, it's one 80th. I think about that when I catch myself saying, "Where did the time go?" More than ever as the years pass, every moment is precious. How many are left to me I have no idea, nor do I wish to know. What matters is to take each moment for what it holds and move on to the next feeling contentment and anticipation. I can take my time that way. Long or short, happy or sad, busy or relaxing, each and every moment of my life needs to be passed with awareness.

May you find the time you need when you need it.

P.S. Any thoughts? Suggestions? Comments? I so enjoy your emails and promise to answer even if it takes a while. Your emails make my day! Thanks for reading me.
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Blessings and Best Regards,
Tasha Halpert
 

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